You will rarely see me reading an English book in German. Most translated stuff sucks. Too much pressure to finish in a too short amount of time. But I do enjoy German writers, particularly the women! There's some really good ones, or at least, some really funny ones.
Today I saw that Blogger had a new Blog of Note called "As Good As it Gets." So I checked it out because I love the film. I've actually used the quote she's using. Needless to say I had certain expectations which were not fulfilled. =)
Which reminds me. The focus of my blog has changed since I've started it, (I like his explanation.) even though a major portion of my waking hours is still dedicated on how to function regardless.
Unfortunately the battle has become a lot harder the past couple of months, and I worry that I'm gonna well and truly lose it if I keep going to go to school with him. It's been an extremely important experience but I just cannot see myself doing this indefinitely. Maybe if he were someone else's kid...
Anyway, it is time for me to renew those passports. If I cannot get an aide for him within a reasonable amount of time.
Friday, January 23, 2009
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It's been a very important experience because it helped me realize that I could work with other people - if I'd have to (or want to) do so again. (Nothing high-pressured for sure, but I don't have the education for that kind of thing anyway.)
That's a big relief for me. I used to have a very difficult time holding down a job in the past because of my issues.
Of course I still come across as odd, and I wouldn't be making any friends or influencing people, but who cares as long as I can do my job and behave semi-appropriately.
That said, going to school with him is a constant reminder of everything that's "wrong" with him, according to society, and I hate it.
So yes, I would be willing to relocate to a country that allows homeschooling if the aide falls through. But that's another can of worms.
Do you gently imply that you perhaps will end this blog?
Come on over. Our schools aren't perfect by any stretch of the imagination, but at least the school is obligated to provide a teacher. There are autistsic children in our neighborhood school and the teachers have aides. I understand what you say about holding down a job 'with issues'. Boy do I ever. If I told you some things about my work history, my guess is you'd maybe understand.
Mago: No, not at all.
It just means that whoever comes here in search of a bipolar-specific blog will be disappointed... and the same applies to those who are looking for a happy mama-blog. :)
Of course I've thought about it, since I've been very uninspired the past few months. But I've never had a place where I've felt this comfortable before. It's worth a lot to me.
Ethereal Highway: I'm glad you understand, and that's one of the things I appreciate about this place, as our society places a lot of value on an immaculate CV...
Amanda, I certainly understand some of your struggles and devotion to your son. I worked as a therapist with children having similar problems as son. I respect your commitment and work with him. At the same time I wish you had relief from the pain of working at school with him. It is not fair for you and your relationship with son I am sorry for your pain but continue to respect your work with him. Peace, Annie
Fine.
Happy Mama blog ... tz ...
That would be very hard to do.
Society is full of constant reminders of what is "wrong" with people. I've come to believe that the only people who are "right" in the eyes of society are actually cyborgs.
BTW, the "happy mommy" blogs have a tendency to make me barf. Babies are cute and children are the future, and everyone is proud of their kids. But anyone who resembles a cookie cutter stereotype "what a mother is supposed to be" type person makes me feel unwell. Then again, being a curmudgeon, the real "shiny happy" stuff tends to make me react like a vampire having a cross thrust in its face anyway.
When I read that guy's post you linked, I was amazed at how perfectly he said everything. That's why I left my own "bipolar blog" for a few months. It's okay to make your blog what you want it to be though, and not necessarily just about 'this' or 'that.' Nobody is holding anyone in a box except yourself. I think you have been expressing yourself well. You say what's on your mind and use your blog the way you see fit. And you have all these people who support you in every way. How awesome is that? Sending you hugs, I know you have a lot on your mind and on the go. Take care of yourself, sweetie. Luv, Jena
I could not see the "As Good As It Gets" blog. It's password protected. Was it always like that?
Amanda, I like your blog because it is not about a specific theme. There are no gimmicks or forced topics. I like it because it is smart, and feels very real and very honest to me.
I can't even remember how I found your blog, but I am glad I did.
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